reaction to today's news

I’m listening to the album Trans by Neil Young right now.  Loving it (on some other I’d be loving the alien, believing the strangest things).  very interesting news this morning.  It sent a shock though my nervous system and sent me pacing around and caused me to explode with expletives. But that’s not because it was negative.  I really don’t know even know how to or what I think about it.  Maybe pecking out this crappy prose will help me sort through it. 

Hard to say because there’s almost no other piece of art that means as much to me.  and so I have to evaluate.  Could this diminish anything.  Maybe it is no coincidence that this very morning after showering I stumbled upon my old dvd copy of Jaws 2.  I love this dvd.  In part because they put a little sailboat design in the letter A in Jaws which is just nifty if you know what happens in that movie.  I also love this dvd because it includes a swell documentary about the making of Jaws 2.  I mean, they didn’t skimp and put out a cheap product.  The picture was great (for its time) on this one.  I have fond memories of watching Jaws 2.  Yet, it goes without saying that Jaws is a masterpiece.  One of my favorite movies of all time.  iconic. Definitive.  And it may have my favorite climax ever.  And of course jaws 2 cannot compare in any way (despite having Roy back).  Its just a slasher type movie with a shark.  But I’ve never felt that it or Jaws 3(d) or Jaws the Revenge do anything to diminish the greatness of Jaws.  Did I make a point?  Was that a point?  I really hate myself.  Now I feel more comfortable.  I need to lay down with a big cardboard box.  Anyway I think it was sort of a point.  Doctor sleep has not diminished The Shining (or has it? The more I learn the less I want to know).

And then I thought of peaks.  How every iteration of peaks was entirely different.  There was a melodramata heavy in the first iteration.  As a wise man pointed out it was the necessary counterbalancing spice to the darkness and bacon frying and by that I mean curtains laden surrealism.  Yeah, and then the second one – porbably my favorite – goes deep into a suburban horror tale.  Ah, the mirror, the diary.  I always thought….  That still haunts me.  glad I had the book nearby, the one with the red cover.  Filled it gaps.  And then the third iteration, perhaps the most endless fascinating.  Stays with me much like that doomed ballet school.  That was truly a glorious age just a couple years ago.  Side is hurting now.  Sometime is wrong.  Can’t keep my head above water.  Sample and hold.  And soon I need to complete this trilogy.  I’m talking about something differnet now.  I need some good witchcraft in my life.  I suppose in some ways I’m reminded of some human league albums. 

Ah, I poured myself another drink and now I see the issue.  I don’t think you can take something so idiosyncratic and force it to fit into something so outside itself.  It would be the same for something fitting a more Christian mold.  Switched over now to cow fingers.  I’m drinking alligator wine.  This just feels so right right off the bat.  It makes me want to jerk my body around.  You know I so love tom waits.  And now I can the line, the direct line there.  or something.  Damn but this really works.  That brass.  Love me some beefheart too, tropical hot dog night.  I also love the old rhcp song subway to venus.  But I digress.  Or do i?  the more I learn the less I want to know.  But yes, I think I hit it.  He once said it was like doing an impression of himself (or something like that) which is impossible but also really weird.  This would even be farther out than that.  This would not be the same thing.  It simply couldn’t be.  It would be the same icon in the guise of the same icon but a different iteration.  Maybe even very similar but it could never be the same thing.  It was far too idiosyncratic.  Could there be a singer returning?  Understand?  Singer.  Right after beyond the sea, so many connections.  Playing the same but it wouldn’t be the same because nothing like this would ever have happened.  And would that cheapen anything?  Yes, this is my very real fear.  But I go back to wrote up above.  I don’t think it would in the long run.  But the fear is still there.  of course I’d be cataclysmically excited.  In the very first second, first there, first everything.  So insane how things have changed. 

And then just the logistics.  I need to get some Steranko.  Really live those cubes, famous.  Would that type of position work?  I don’t think so.  I don’t think it’s tenable.  IT Chapter 2 was hilarious.  I don’t have the right kind of faith in that regard.  And if there must be this overlap I really would rather another be encased in crimson.  I really do not want a clever playful juxtaposition.  That would certainly be egregiously cheap. 

At some point things must simply be laid to rest.  I don’t want anything tainted.  It will never be forgotten.  can this change anything?  I have no idea.  It may all just be talk. And you know the funny thing?  Despite all my misgivings I will surely be disappointed if it doesn’t happen.  I never make any fucking sense. 

Finally, a doff of the cap to Joel.  I never knew you.  But you’ll always be part of the legacy (as well as the force behind many other interesting works).  You brought me much joy years and years ago.  I can still sometimes feel that now.  Thanks.   I think I’ll put on Forever right now.