Tuesday, November 23, 2021

shitty throaway post (but some peripheral stuff there, this is like the crusts but i like crusts)

 

Alligators.  Sometimes it takes more than a man to fight the corporate machine.  Alligators have me.  Needs to employ scissors tonight.  Will probably eat cereal tonight.  Might employ scissors while watching a martial arts feature film.  Need to cut into things.  In that way I may find the future.  Parchment.  The font courier.  The concept of zero.  The gas in all the cities.  Now I’m convulsing and dancing around a post apocalyptic temple or sorts.  Covered in embryonic fluid I end up looking much nicer without the facial hair, my phallus bouncing to and fro whilst I engage in a jaunty little dance.  Don’t have the dollars and/or cents for a third mind.  Still, my passion is equal to the task.  And aren’t plastics the way of the future anyway?  Haven’t plastics made everything else obsolete in a sense.  If so, then perhaps plastics is the key to my dollars and cents oriented problem.  Mice.  Of course, I don’t have any sort of crime boss in my corner.  What I meant to say is that despite all the geniuses around me, I’ve no one that can design the program I need for my wants.  And I’ve never been computer savvy.  Classicist perhaps?  No, simply ignorance.  So I will have to employ different methods.  Will wax be present?  God, I’m so sick of myself.  But this feels like it could be a lovely conduit.  The words keep flowing out of me like juicy red hot diarrhea.  Methinks with a glass of wine, I’ll start doing things.  Then I’ll cry.  I have to save time for reading.  Authors that are forming a part of a special group for me include….  I’m going to reread a book soon.  This is very much a throwaway.  I’m calm for the time being.  Spilling that previous 6000 words or so really helped to take the edge off.  But I know it’s only a matter of time.  To say nothing of the increasingly common pain in my gut.  Time to lay off the booze and the coffee.  The zone, that’s the necessary place of travel.  Need to wear a hat.  Need to meet in a dark place somewhere.  Need to exterminate.  Need to listen to jazz.  I was watching a movie I love the other day that I think has a great score and I stupidly forgot that John Williams did the score.  I guess I’m looking for something genuine and since I can’t seem to find that within myself i have to use other methods, other techniques.  Don’t forget about that limo driver who recalled that a passenger/client had once used the word “tactics.”  That one word said it all.  Now this, is very peripheral.  That one bryan adams song that everyone knows.  That really filled the floor.  It was around the time of my departure.  Ghost.  In another realm I stayed and eventually starting cutting a rug and had a grand ol time and was eventually accompanied by….   I’m not a junky in the classic sense and that is a shame.  I’m not really much of anything, even a martian prince.  Good grief this is crap, just the remaining bottom of the barrel stuff.  Tomorrow arriving The Right. 

I did end up watching a martial arts movie last night and I enjoyed it.  I was playing with scissors and drinking while watching it.  Wanted to go to red room but did not.  Creating awkward relationships is the key.  Constantly starting over cause I can’t do anything right.  I guess I’m looking for that one bit of truth.  Back in this useless place now.  Hate when they say my name.  I realized at one point that I was confusing evening with evil.  Cutting paper was nice.  I employed a cowboy hat.  The tome is far too costly.  I don’t get anything out of anything because I am empty inside.  On a similar note, I want to obtain some other editions of several books I already have.  I hate the cover art and design of so many modern books.  Or do I?  the more I learn the less I want to know.  I need to reread that water book by Clarice (turning into one of my favorite authors but so challenging for a doofus like me, dumbfuck that I am).  i like the smell of old paper.  

And now this Italian controversy.  People are so damn greedy.  Why do people care so much about money?  Why are we all so fucking useless?  Now I remember being chastised for wanting a chocolate donut.  Can you remember that?  Can you fucking believe it?! ALL THAT OVER A MOTHERFUCKING CHOCOLATE DONUT!!! IS THAT ANYWAY TO TREAT YOUR SON, YOU MISERABLE FUCK!!!  You are going to be so sorry one day for the way you treated us.  Pretend that last sentence is in a different color. Depending on the age, the words of a parent(s) can very much feel like the words of God. 

I was digressing there for a second.  Why the disparagement?  This request of federal reserve notes hardly costs more than a drink.  The promises look great.  All heading in this direction again.  plastics have us.  The illusory has us.  The need to funnel experience through this.  Oh, the geometry of it all! Eight eight eight now.  Would now be the time to say anything constructive or complimentary?  Suppose it doesn’t matter.  Probably shouldn’t even venture.  But perhaps I will venture.  Gotta say goodbye though.  Everything circles back again.  I should have contemplated suicide.  That links in nicely with something else.  Yep, empty again, never saw the jackal who isn’t the jackal again.  no more electrocution I suppose.  I really loved zeroes and ones.  Five! Not even the fucking shooters know who did it! Just getting to know the Goddess of Death.  I suspect I will have cereal for dinner.  I remember falling down the hill after that drink.  All so meaningless.  Never knew about the loss.  Mis.  Where has everyone gone? 

Tonight I should like to drink whale milk with strawberries.  There’s nothing quite as good as strawberry (except maybe cake).  kirby.  love. 

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