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I love burning. Incredible.  Clint eastwood is one of my favorite actors and directors.  Or is he?! The more I learn the less I want to know.  I’m still very absorbed by the big book dreamcatcher by Stephen king.  What a brilliant and pulpy read.  While in a semi related noted the words of karla turner have infected my mind.  Need to shave.  I didn’t shave yesterday.  Or did i?  the more I learn the less I want to know.  I need to read more.  I was called out for being evil the other night.  Suppose I couldn’t disagree.  God, I’m so tired of everyone.  Wish everyone would just leave me alone.  Or am I really just tired of myself?  That’s probably it. Ate some red meat for lunch.  Put some ketchup on it.  Remember being at a bar and a heavy set Mexican man was eating gross bar food – burger and fries me thinks – and licking his stumpy fingers after literally every bite, making a wet popping sound.  So disgusting.  People are so fucking disgusting.  I liked the joker scene that was released.  I have fully faith in Barry.  Loved his last line reading there.  understand the need of omission though.  Recalled manhunter for me.  one of my favorite films.  I use a melted screwdriver and a little rubber croc as totems of inspiration.  Fuck, I need to get that special edition blu ray of communion.  That film (and book) really freaks me the FUCK out but I needs it.  It gets the writing process.  It speaks well to the whole abduction experience.  I wish one person in my life really gave a shit.  I wish one person in my life really understood me.  eh, I’m not sure I actually do wish that.  I actually love being alone.  Been listening to the wu tang clan a lot again recently.  Love their music.  I like that double album a lot.  And Ghostface’s solo albums.  It’s sad how get older and just focus on money and decorative shit.  Almost everything in our lives is just empty decorative shit.  I was too sad last night to watch a sad movie.  It’s been 13 years since part 1 of the commuter type interview with Hollywood favorite DB Sweeney went up! When is part 2 coming out!? Surely 13 years is enough time to edit it! Will they have us waiting until the end of time (I’ll be there for you.)?  I love Prince’s music. 

Gonna write some garbage for a while.  Sure hope I can take a shit today.  I don’t understand the emphasis people put on funerals.  I don’t understand most things people do. more and more I just doubt.  We just seem like a dumb monkey species.  A dumb filthy primitive animal species.  But I don’t even like saying this because I love animals.  I vastly prefer animals to people.  That reminds me how I enjoy the movie Congo! What a fun flick! And Laura Linney! She’s so cool! I love jungle adventure movies!  I need to rewatch the serpent and the rainbow! And swamp thing! And a bunch of other crap! And read alan more swamp thing comic books! And a bunch of other alan moore crap! God, why can’t people just leave me the FUCK alone?  Tightrope is not a great film but as always I love how eager he is to play with and subvert his own popular image.  FUCKING BRILLIANT!  Need to read Sondra’s book.  she’s been a great and charismatic presence in these!  Need to read miller Eisner as well.  And that Hitchcock book.  and more esoteric and conspiratorial shit! 

And of course through it all I must be listening to the Sonic R soundtrack! Sonic R, one of the greatest video games of all time with one of – or perhaps THE – greatest video games soundtracks of all time.  my Shout Factory special edition blu ray of Phillipe Mora’s Communion (based on Whitley Strieber’s bestseller) is on it’s way.  I am one of 1500 great people who will have that specific iteration in their film collections! Or am i?!  the more I learn the less I want to know.  I need to add to my esoteric book collection and order a vintage copy of Wolds in Collision by Immanuel Velikovsky.  Then I need to check if there are any used pairs of pantyhose I can order!   I need to order some books by Japanese authors.  I’m eating almonds.  I need to listen to cher, heart and Elton john this week.  I recently changed a light bulb.  I was recently listening to new order with my windows rolled down and I had the feeling that everything was going to be all right.  But I don’t trust that feeling.  Substance.  It’s too stuffy in here.  need to clean house and make room.  Some of the bass players I find deeply inspiring include Peter Hook, Flea, Eric Avery, Joe Lally and that’s all I can think of right now.  Hook is so rad.  I like nancy Sinatra.  I need to read the liner notes to that one compilation of hers I bought.  Or do i?  the more I learn the less I want to know.  It’s best that I don’t talk to anyone.  I’m repugnant.  Pearl handle.  Or pearl grip.  Not sure how to put it.  Too tempted to use it on myself but we live in a very dangerous world. 

 I think From a Buick 8 is one of Stephen King’s most underrated works.  I love that book.  or do i?! the more I learn the less I want to know.  That order of used pantyhose arrived just in the nick of time!   I can’t find Tangerine Dream’s soundtrack to Firestarter anywhere!  I hate myself so much! I’m gonna cook a steak here in a little bit.  Sion sono has been one of my favorite directors  a long time.  many of his films mean a great deal to me.  I just don’t know what to say right now.