LJR

There were more things that happened.  That’s for damn for sure.  There were more things that happened like ballerinas and quinoas.  I woke this morning and felt so disgusted to be in my body.  I need to scream and lash out but I cannot.  I’m only happy when I’m drinking.  If you want me I’ll be at the bar.  Oh my SD150!!!  You are the dream now!  Spectral energy rising from a large ironing board.  I should have listened to a friend.  That sentence doesn’t really mean anything to anyone, least of all me.  Oh what a miserable person I am.  I am truly deeply unhappy but it’s only because I hate everyone in the world.  I need to start designing my own furniture.  Then I’m going to start sending videotapes to myself.  You don’t know what the word depth means.  Its not what you think.  Is today the day I start reading the book Dune?  You know, I think it just might be.  I would like to throw off the rusty shackles of my pathetic responsibilities and be free!  But freedom is not meant for someone like me.  For the gift, I opted for the non collector’s edition.  I went cheap. A cheap gift for a cheap bastard.  Fuck!  No one provides any support.  Folding clothes.  I need those clothes folded now!  You are going to be so sorry one day for the way you treated us.  Do you remember who said that?  An ugly, awful, atrocious unholy thing.  Not a person, a thing.  A disgusting thing.  I should just move out to the wine country area of California and be done with it.  how did those shoes get over there?  I gotta quite my fob.  No my  job, mind you, that’s what Laura needs to do (when she’s not confusing ketchup with blood), but my fob!  I think it was lost in a rain puddle somewhere but if I do my finger trick I should be able to find it.  the man who did the finger trick also sought fame by being complicit in some copycat crimes.  Those torches are scary.  Digital’s uneasy relationship with light, eh?  It is lovely.  yuck, I sure do hate the mornings.  Luckily, I ordered a couple more Godard films which should help me get through things.  just a little bit more of my miserable and utterly worthless life.  One day at a time!  One fun at a time!  Why is the sun only shining on my eyes?  Yessir, I sure do love this man of mine!  I have a bunch of wrist watches here in my jacket if you want to buy one.  

The code word was peanut butter.  Would you remember that?  Probably not but that’s okay. Orange shirt.  Black pants.  Peach.  Delicious.  That last sentence is not complete but the true answers can easily be found elsewhere.  It was the quote of the day and the beginning of something controlling terrible and beautiful.  Pillow over the head.  We are all evil.  There is something quite vampiric taking place.  You’re just a junkie.  I’m going to show you how weak you are.  Rhapsody in Blue.  Peach.  We will meet one evening there and take off our masks.  You seem like a really nice person.  I have utterly failed.  Coastal Culture needs to make a comeback.  Ripe for dismissal.  I like that phrase.  

So I showed up around midday and I was smack dab in the middle of the thick of it all but it was actually quite fortuitous.  Lovely to look at in many respects.  Several nice artistic flourishes.  It’s only an island if you look at it from the water.  Island was his favorite.  But only to a point.  Issues given lip service and then not extrapolated on.  Interesting issues but nothing more than service of lip.  Potential lost.  Inland empire connections but more special.    Something underground.  Mirrors.  This was generous.  But my desired path led to nowhere.  A minor arc for the charismatic one.  Everyone else stagnant.  The end is the beginning.  Needless largely?  Lovely looks again.  red salt.  Too much self sacrifice.  Awful casino zone and animal stampedes.  Needless fading.  What do originals mean these days?  The death of the beloved admiral.  It seems much of it is already fading away.  Somewhere in the midst and thick of things is something very prime and unique.  But not grasped at all.  still, I need repetition.  Things may dramatically increase or decrease with repetition.  But I always have a super awesome great time no matter what!  Gotta stay positive so I hope everyone was filled with pure love.  I hope everyone jumped with glee.  I did love the nests.  Nests are very cute.  

My heart was all over the place last night.  

Whoops!  A case of you made me cry again (need more version stat!)

I need to pen a tone poem about the failure of my life.  Then maybe I’ll write a critique of that tone poem.  Is there a chemical balance going on?!  Speaking of all that, the soundtrack to Mann’s Miami Vice really is quite good.  Not sure about Li’s line readings though.  Of that I am just not sure.  

That’s right, we were both there at the grand opening.  Fittingly awkward because I am fittingly awful.  can that $14 please be the last?  No more self control.  The death of everything.  stop fucking with me.  The only joke is that if I did it no one would actually care.  So would there be any meaning behind it?  volleyball was quite the sport back in the day and we all know the reason why.  She prevented my band’s big performance with joyous venom.  Red sweater if I recall.  Former companion loved her.  I did too eventually.  And then there was awkward confrontation.  And the sweet girlfriend of the guitarist overheard.  But we got over it.  or did we?  I think so. Warm hands.  Not clammy.  Just warm.  My gosh, what that who he saw at that conglomerate collection the other day?!  Could it be true?  And he as ugly as ever.  uglier!  So there you have it, my thoughts in a shell of nut!  Red guys finally seen were cool.  Loved all the red.  Surprises added up to knot(s on a counting rope).  

Everything is increasingly grey.  I’d like to just go back to sleep.  

In the end it really all does come back to the pretty body of land surrounded by water.  Rhapsody in blue.  Peach.  Nicest person.  All angling.  We’re all just anglers.  

She was hiding the money between the sole of her nylon clad foot and the bottom inside of her cream colored high heeled shoe.  $25.  That’s also the price of a new plate.  

That Michelle Branch song still kicks beautiful ass!  

She’s….

And that’s why I always make sure to buy and drink that type of juice!  Because of the hot pants!!!