You’re all a bunch of fucking idiots! Someone much
smarter than I said that.
I had a few drinks earlier and they left me exhausted. My word, we are all such pathetic creatures. We are all so unbelievably stupid and useless. I am disgusted by our very existence. I will be wasting a great deal of time very soon. I’m so tired. What’s happened to me? Maybe I need to eat more eggs and/or peanuts. Maybe I need to dance the tango. I watched a Denzel Washington movie recently that was just okay. But what do I know? I’m an idiot. If I go no one really feels anything. Denzel has a much more valuable life than I. I love the cinematography in Michael Mann’s Collateral. I love Lynch’s recent Showtimes series. I’ve been listening to a lot of Stone Temple Pilots recently. I feel so sick right now, so physically ill. People turn to him in their hour of need. Why? Sorrow. Sorrow. We live in a 2-d travesty. What would they do without the skulls on their t-shirts? I am ugly. I have something ugly inside of me. I am ridiculous.
I wonder why everyone can’t just leave me alone. I love not talking to anyone. I am so very ugly. I always have tears in my eyes and I don’t know why. I love John Frusciante’s first album. I have disappointed you. I don’t think they really sell trading cards anymore. At the diner, he was staring at the waitress’s ass. It was an understandable lapse in courtesy. We interrupt this broadcast…oh God ,it is something corrupt and frightening. Did you see that? it is surely a sign of the apocalypse. I’d forgotten how much I love the Supergirl TV series.
I recently bought U2’s new album. I picked it up in the store and then carried it to the checkout lane and then paid for it with plastic. Then I listened to it. I feel like I’m going to throw up in this very instant. Everybody hates me. I hate myself as well. I like the new album though! On first blush there are a lot of good shimmery melodies.
I fell asleep for a minute there and then I realized I didn’t have a puppet budget. I don’t want to drink that wine, ya hear?
We’re so close to the earth. I am so close to the earth. That’s the central problem isn’t it? you must be very proud. It was at two o clock in the morning that he was beaming with pride. I was watching all the parts. He was so exquisitely empty. Was the forbidden dance providing unwitting inspiration? He is sick of everything. I forgot what it was like to play with blocks.
Jeez it’s been 3 days. That was yesterday. Purple and earrings. Laughing when thinking about my death.
It was not unlucky 13. It was only i3. I3. How could I have been so wrong? So fucked up in the head? My hands are numb.
It’s the last two that haunt me so much. and several before. The long week to that dingy hotel room. I was expecting to fine two beautiful and mismatched eyes and instead I found a most frightening teapot occasionally steaming out the infinity symbol. I said goodbye to my son whilst he was electrocuted by energies from an alternate dimension. Nuthin like home cookin I said apropos to nothing. Don’t like drama, eh? No more words about that.
Can’t stop the thought process. Purple and earrings but only one side was a betrayal. White belts and brown belts. Both wonderful.
He turned into a ball and then…. Frightens me to no end as she stabs the picture over and over again and still it makes no difference. I need to get that new Jodorowsky flick. Shoulda been here by now. In the end it all devolved into an utterly existential crisis. I just would like everyone to leave me alone. But that does not seem like a possibility. I desperately need a drink right now. He doesn’t exist anymore, at least not in the normal sense. That was a loving tribute. He went to space, he went to another dimension. I’ve been searching long time for that dimension and I think I may have found it. muses are crashing to the earth. I am forever tethered to here. Please forgive these endless longings. It all loops back.
I rather like this new U2 album.
Know what other music related thing I like? The new Stone Temple Pilots song Meadow and their new singer. Did I say that already? It warrants repeating. Still, the ultimate test will be the full album and live shows.
I think I’m going to read the book Dune. I’ve never read this tome before but it’s never too late to start. The book I’m reading now is a love story and I quite like it.
So many meaningless exchanges just evaporate around me. It is unfortunate that we must talk to one another. Nighttime is such a short time. I wished I had a future…. I suppose I deserve all of this. I think my Rhapsody in Blue has gone away. I feel strange like a lot of things have gone away but I’m not exactly sure why. But I don’t really miss them either so I guess it doesn’t matter. That De Palma documentary was a real corker! Same with the Cannon doc. There is one doc above all though. These instruments are obsolete. Maybe I am not beyond hope. Something terrible is going on in the woods.
I just need to buckle down and save. I need a natural thirst quencher right now. My mouth is parched. Or is it?
That walk. A lovely walk. A look over the shoulder. then a proposition. Melted and unmelted in one. Why not? Love you. didn’t see that tall guy.
We’re clinging to something. That’s not the right word. I know. everything. I know nothing and I am nothing. Everything needs to be capitalized, especially there. our fingers have not even touched all the pages. We are a complete waste. Those hoping they would be able to propagate from this experience are going to be sorely disappointed. How selfish to want to create more. And ore for that matter.
It was a fun movie, you were right.
I’m adding more words here for a secret reason I will soon forget.
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