I’m breaking a cardinal
rule here. or am i? the more I learn the less I want to
know. I recently watched the Harmony
Korine movie The Beach Bum and absolutely loved it. It seemed to be a spiritual sequel to Spring
Breakers and a spiritual brother to Serenity from earlier this year. Savvy readers will no doubt recall that Serenity
is likely my favorite movie of the year thus far. I did not see The Beach Bum in theatres and
that was due to my own negligence and I have to live with that for the rest of
my sure to be miserable and worthless life.
I need to rewatch em both back to back.
I watched Aquaman again recently as well. Or did i?
the more I learn the less I want to know. I’m going to listen to some new music
soon. Horse. He’s drinking again. He means me.
I recently watched the
child’s play remake. Or did i? the more I learn the less I want to
know. I think I’m going to order an
autographed copy of Bear McCreary’s score to the film. Then I’ll listen to it. i fell deeply in love with Aubrey Plaza as
the mother in the film. So much so I
wish she were my mother. Then I would
literally and figuratively pour out my entire soul to hear and launch into her
embrace and let her comfort me and I would cry and cry and cry and it would be
beautiful. She is so lovely. I am going to watch the first season – and maybe
the entire series – of Legion just to see her.
then, if all goes according to plan, I’m going to blow my brains
out.
I’m going to steal a
bunch of gold and then hide out in an Italian villa. I’m listening to music while I write
this. That autographed copy should be
arriving by mail shortly! And when it
arrives I may so excited that I’ll tweet about it! so much empty sexual expression going. All feeling so terrible at the end of
things. of course, I think as my head
goes light, how utterly proper. Clearly
trying to be steered in a more correct direction. Which is a wonderful thing, is it not? A necessary thing.
Butterfly in the
rainforest. I was inhaling her and
inhaling the rain forest. And everything was beautiful. You’re okay.
How to explain. There was initially so much uncertainty
though everything had gone oh so well.
The maritime city. Lost on the
ravaged streets. Had to go back and
forth and try to figure it all out and eventually depending on the kindness of
strangers. Not exactly low men in yellow
coats but at least yellow hats. Mica was
present during a long wait. Strings
while grief was being painstakingly processed and everything red on us and in
back. But blue in front and outside and
so lovely and there was no need to be concerned about the tardiness. Tee hee, how so much of the mood setting was
from the familiar, first with marine themed touches which have already been
mentioned and then with the entrance to the island. Pause.
There it is. Recognition at once
and the locale was perfect. Ah, the
subsequent ambience. Though it can be
truly said I have consumed far too much meat lately. What have you been filling your heart
with? Simple arrival all within
minutes. No trouble traversing the
layers. New outer layers for just such
an occasion all carefully color coordinated.
Later on there will be blood but all happiness. For now there is simple pleasant loss.
A lot of nothingness is
coming our way. It’s going to all be over quite soon. Don’t let it all slip away.
This is important and
necessary. Before everything else that
is to follow. I need to remember this
blissful prelude, the only bit of good here as everything else withers and
falls away because of me. Just gotta
hang on to this moment. Pure expression
of love.
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