Monday, April 28, 2025

seven plus one, trying to memorize acrylic colors and ink designs (always ink), want to be so close, once on face commence hyperventilate

 

Ugly misshapen white trash from down below spent the better part of the night hacking up a lung and she’s still at it this morning.  It sends me into titters of giggles.  Went for a haircut this morning.  Or did i?!  the more I learn the less I want to know.  After the haircut I stopped by a local coffee dive to purchase a medium black iced Americano.  Small piece of fabric up the glorious big ass.  A real breath of fresh ass.  Bending over with such grace and skill to pour the hot coffee over the cold ice.  Take everything I have!  Take all the cash I have for that skill with the hot coffee pouring! 

And now it’s a prelude to an uh!  A mixture of personalities as the whole day contained so much color, joy and shame!  Your old pal Jimmy Adjudication here to report that nothing has changed on the financial front!  Still waiting to hear something, anything, from somebody!  Fortunately, I’d vowed during these uncertain times to rack up even more credit card debt and so far I have been succeeding with great aplomb!  With great relish and sauerkraut!  I managed to scrounge up roughly one hundred fifty dollars cash American but that will closely be wasted on booze.  Drank a lot of coffee today though.  So much so that I’m trembling as I write this and my stomach is in considerable pain.  That’s why I have pepto though.  Landlord called too.  All my life – it’s such a shame shame shame.  But then at some point I learned that the Dark Angel will return tonight and my spirits were lifted.  Savvy readers may recall that the ongoing exploits of the Dark Angel are one of the only things keeping me alive these days. 

Lets not bury the lead any longer than necessary.  Clashing of events now.  all the mundanity of my life gloriously out of order.  Went to the bank at one point. Man, this prose is really suffering. My writing has gone to shit.  Even more than normal.  Two parcels arrived at my domicilio today.  Or did they?!  The more I learn the less I want to know.  One was a book that I want to read.  Or do i?!  the more I learn the less I want to know.  The other is from the wagon that is now tens of miles up the road ahead of me.  ah, the sunshine state.  Ah, glorious commerce.  Ah, the joys that must be inherent to repeat customers. Bonus tightly sealed in a Ziploc bag.  Five stars.  Satisfaction guaranteed.  Inventory on a yellow postit note.  Tryouts . then multiple layers.  Can’t breathe!!!  Then another immediate buy before it is too late. But for me, it’s always too late. Same for your old pal Jimmy Adjudication.  for losers like us it is always too late.  Somewhere in the midst of all this, helping to bookend the total lack of workday was a glorious new discovery.  There, a little Shangri la in the middle of the desert.  Hmmm, you’ve been here before, haven’t you?  I’m certain.  I never forget a face.  what was with all the nerves. You’re a grown man, damnit.  Or are you?!  The more I learn the less I want to know.  Dead time.  only one around.  Still at the right for two lists of choices to be offered.  Yes, I had a big ethnic meal early afternoon and also imbibed some soft alcohol.  Spending money you don’t have is one of the great pleasures of life and one of the grandest institutions that make up this great country, this united states .  the meal left me feeling bloated and disgusting as is my wont.  Yet, glorious, another breath of fresh…somehow even greater than that of the dawn.  Stupendous, astounding . truly wonderful.  Tears up, best thing that’s happened to him in a long time?!  hard to say.  Or is it? the more I learn the less I want to know.  But that coupled with the parcel, it was all too much.  Overload . couldn’t stop thinking about.  Manicured to infinity.  Plying the skills of language.  so glorious in all the rotations.  Near the wild heart now.  casually evil.  Throwing furniture around.  All my children are going to grow up to be serial killers.  Ah, the great clarity of things.  floor stained.  And what did he want with this bountiful beauty?  Why of course, for her to have a big satisfying meal, for to her to eat hardy with great delights.  And then later on bring about lovely emasculation, love subjugation .  to blow beautiful hot ones right in his face, laughing and berating all the while.  The simple complex pleasures of life.  face full of contamination now.  sneezing all the time.  a glorious new obsession is taking hold  purity, beauty.  The Christianity symbol of this has no play here.  need to wash my face and secure my belongings. 

And so where do we end up?!  Why, of course I’m trying to put together a collection of various silver, bronze and modern age comics. Very specific ones.  I’ve been making a list as I currently have no scratch to order any of them but the list is ever vigilant, ever growing!  I’ll be ordering them all from that incredibly risky site ebay.  I’m not going for the copies in the greatest condition.  I’m fine with fair condition on these comics.  Either way, the jolly mailman always bends the shit out of whatever s/he puts into my mailbox so it doesn’t really matter anyway (possessed person screams).  Such is the perennially pathetic existence of one J. Adjudication.  I think I’ll eat a slice of bread with peanut butter on it.  then I’ll write longhand in my diary.  My most intimate thoughts.  I miss you dreadfully.  The lack of purity is growing.  All those betting I would survive this are surely regretting their decision now.  felt very faint there for a moment.  The little death.  Want to come quick then die.  All the soaring days.  I’ll be back. oh how I’ll be back.  I’m rotted on the inside.    

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