Wish nia
would accidentally injure me. she loves carbs. Thinking about harvo. Those early inks. Thinking about aparo. The experiments in black during that
run. Janson. Williams.
And now Vinnie. And I’m thinking
about a conspicuous absence. I was only
peripheral to that goodbye but was it a goodbye goodbye? Maybe in a clinic for substance abuse
problems. More curiosity than anything
else. Nothing truly meaningful here. bit players all around. No news on the financial front for your old
pal Jimmy Adjudication. can’t even
afford a Costco hotdog. I would kill for
one of those right now. with extra kraut
and relish. Or would i?! the more I learn the less I want to know. Seems appropriate for this disappearance to
happen right now, near a time of quasi completion. Maybe time to let some bad habits fade and
look for some new ones. If this is it,
how to best summarize it? it began with
a thumbs up. It began with sacred
geometry. You get the fuck out of here! it began with a green motorcycle. No, that was actually much later on. Peach.
Cloudy or stormy. Cloudy like
French but that has nothing to do with this.
Little fruit bat and a cartoon bear.
Screamo shit. Throwin’ back
mouthwash. I thought it was seven, said
with incredulity, alongside another who has vanished, the real center of it
all. Reading about vampires. Sitting by yourself. Ah the glories of substance abuse. Lot of laughter. The night where four people had the same
name! drinking glitter! Drinking shit out of a can! Taking a little tour. The death of a friend who hadn’t been in
contact for a while due to the jealousy of a then current significant
other. More odd parallels. What does it
all mean. Asking permission for a hug. Walking halfway back to a vehicle. Chance encounters at the same while feeling
so fucking angry. Big furry coat. Yeah, brutha, yeah. high . not too much to say at the culmination
of things. maybe never really much there
at all. People just sort of cling to one
another out of blind dumb necessity and convince themselves it’s meaningful but
it’s more just about proximity.
Totaled. This is definitely a
vibe. Thank you for being patient. Bland.
How’s your scotch? That’s about
it. probably some other things I’m forgetting that’ll come back to me at some
point. No hundreds of thousands this
time. though evidently there is a
problem at hand being witnessed. Silly
ass, how could I forget. Belinda. and then an oil man (not HW). Beast boy on the breast. Mystical crystals and taking out the
trash. Then it all went ghost (nothing
to do with killjoys, alas). And prior to
it all the dark one eyed man. how
strange and offputting, forced communication from across the room. Double date denied. Usually don’t but you’re different. Obvious but effective translator
tactics. Obvious but effective needing a
ride tactics. Then too strong gotta back down.
please just leave me the fuck alone . then confrontation, all linking
back in now, to the one is not a bit.
Noticing. Text me saucy. Look at it and laugh while drunken and on
bright red sheets. Where’s my cowboy
hat?! There, is that it?! almost. Atrocious singing by way of apology for the
apocalyptic doomsaying whilst blitzed on hard narcotics. Nice arms.
Delroy with the nom. Corny is way
off base in one or two aspects. Same
shit every time . babyface babyface.
Need to get back into it. need to drive around. I just took a tremendous squelchy crap! Could for some bangers and mash later but I
don’t have any fucking money. Not even
for beer! Tough skin! Dense bone!
Ass trumpet symphony! That zappa
collection with the dolphins is pretty rad.
I’m such a piece of shit. Pull
your head out of your ass, baybay! I
don’t know what’s what. She’s
everywhere, all over the place. Think
I’ll have a can of chili for dinner. Pretty
nice day out. Feels like I have found
the musical equivalent. The collection
that most encompasses the emotional variance down under. Zoo.
These days days days. Of course
there is also the dogs in the rain and gross timmy and turning into dust. And remember the ones who have fallen. And something spiritual and mythic happening
in a very dark way on a fast moving European train. Of course, to see you, so sweet. Mimicry of the ball . my whole life is a
work. so much time gone since. Like horses.
More rewiring. Glorious
debasement. If I had any balls at all
I’d go for a drive later. Just had a
rich dinner of cold chunky beef chili with beans straight out of the can along
with a tall glass of tepid tapwater (my favorite) to wash it all down. that’s the kind of charmed life you lead when
you’re Jimmy Adjudication! still need to
buy a bag of spuds. I’m determined to
make unsalted unbuttered unsourcreamed unpeeled boiled spuds a regular part of
my diet. I have the pan, I have the
tapwater but what I still lack are the spuds.
Need to reacquaint myself with the robert works. The earliest canonical was so
inspirational. And then I see more
consistency than I originally allowed. First
experienced with someone who was once a close friend but is now a stranger. Ink again.
Always ink. A life dedicated to nothing.
Looking for coal black. Rituals have
me. a brazil bbw facesitting. Reading comics
makes me feel good. Or does it?! the more
I learn the less I want to know. I never quite matured into a worthwhile human
being. No progress on the Dark Angel
today and the emptiness I am experiencing just shows how hopeless and dependent
I became. Remember that time I stood up
at the bar?! I’ve been trading off that
story for years now. bartender had a
terrific cellulite ridden ass that she was damn proud of showing off! gonna eat an avocado soon. Just can’t take this.
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